so i havent updated this in forever but hey i know i always need to start back up ways to procrastinate.

happy new year everyone!

As for resolutions I have a couple.
1. I plan to go vegan and stay healthy.
2. Do better this semester than last.
3. I'll read more.
4. And last but not least I'll stop crushing my own dreams before I've even had a chance to see what happens.

I send my love to everyone and maybe I'll try to write in this more to keep ppl updated

so i offically fly out at 4:15am on friday i'm excited though i was really bummed i missed some of you guys last week while i was at camp
i love you all!!! and i have a long christmas break that i'll be back for and we'll hang out and have our annual christmass/new years party
if any of you are still around i still have 2 more days that are not clamed by people so if you move fast i'd love to see any of you left around these parts before i leave
on a side note i got my new computer and i love it!
and i will keep everyone posted on life out east i hope to have good pictures of the prettyness of the fall there and other things
love to all who read!

and only for a short engagement
i leave in a month one month from today roughly i still dk how i'm getting to college but i'm going
europe was awesome as always will be i have stuff to do but i will ditch anything to see you guys!!! aaaaa!! i havent seen anyone in forever and from all the millions of journals i've recived while gone i know that there is a lot for me to catch up on so give me a call when your free
love to all who read
sorry short and sweet is the way to be today
loves!

yes i am finally back with in cell phone reception
i returned from camp on Sunday after a rousing afties and i cant help but to think and reflect on my choices and my week
i met the most amazing kid i think he has changed my life for the better these days and i hope to figure out a way to repay him
and all in all i think the week was worth the trade of not being a camper but i cant help but to feel a little sad about not being a camper this year... i'm going to miss out on a bunch of senior camper things and to say the least i will be sad to loose that last year of bonding before everyone goes their separate ways but i let fate decide this and i know that who ever is out there looking after me planned this for a reason but i cant help but to worry about it more for that reason too i mean i am in love with that little boy and if i come back next summer and he's not there i'll be crushed and i hate to think of that i've spend the last few days just praying that thats not the plan that the plan is i come back and hes in remission and all is well and i raise 2 million dollars for cancer research i mean these are the things i want to happen but i am alway afraid of what might happen the week at oncology sent me back to a time when my life was so up in the air and i didn't know from day to day what would happen and i'm scared of that but its one of the reasons i think i was destined to be staff this year because i'm learning from my past by reliving a part i have since forgotten and for terrible reasons fear can drive you to do so much more than you ever thought you could and i think thats why i'm doing this and thats why i was there
love to all who read

hey good news everyone! my car runs.... but it smells like ass
thats all i have for now i need to sleep and/or watch TV with lisette
5 days till camp!
love to all who read!